Monday, April 30, 2012

"I Miss Her Too"

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Has it really been a year
Since I touched her face
Held her hand
Heard her voice

I keep expecting
An announcer
to walk in and say
Kidding! It was just
A little joke

Or to wake up
From this nightmare
With her voice
on the other end of the call
saying I love you

Then she wouldn't really
Have missed everything
That's happened

Found here
And I'd still be able
To call and ask
All the endless
Questions I still
Want to ask

My children would
still be learning
all the mischief
from Gramma.

And I'd still be able to
give her all the
hugs that I'd
want to, and
listen to all the
advice she still had
to give, and soak up
all the love
she gave away.

But I've come to
the slow realization
That there are no
more hugs, no
more phone calls, no
more advice, no
more stop-in visits.

It's a slap in the face
Why didn't anyone tell me?
So many told me
to grieve as long as I needed
But they act embarrassed
ashamed when I still cry
when I still hurt
My grief makes them uncomfortable
uneasy
afraid to look me in the eye
because...
they can't handle the sorrow?
So they look anywhere
else but at me
make themselves busy
and quickly exit the
conversation.

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I just want someone to hold
my hand and the pieces of
my broken heart
no words needed
just love and care and warmth

To tell me
nothing
To say no platitudes

Not to say
Call me if you need
anything
Because I won't call

To just come over
and get me out of
bed and into the
shower
Or just let me cry
without shame or
embarrassment
and just hold my hand and
say
I miss her too

Meditations on the Life of Mary, Conclusion




III. Oh, how powerful are the motives of this devotion, and how wonderful are its effects! If, therefore, you are tossed to and fro on the stormy ocean of this world, do not turn away your eyes from this resplendent star, lest you perish in the tempest. If the winds of temptation blow, if you are in danger of being dashed against the rocks of adversity, look at the star, call upon Mary. If the waves of pride, of ambition, of detraction, of anger, of avarice, or lust, threaten your soul, call upon Mary. If, troubled at the sight of your manifold sins, frightened at the thought of the just Judge, you begin to sink into the abyss of sorrow and despair, think of Mary. In all dangers, in all your trials, invoke Mary. Let her name be on your lips, let her memory be in your heart. If you follow her, you will not go astray; if you trust in her, you will not be disappointed; if she takes care of you, you need not fear; if she protects you, and intercedes for you, you will safely arrive at the haven of eternal felicity.

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Sunday, April 29, 2012

Meditations on the Life of Mary, Introduction (cont'd)

Devotions for the month of May
Meditations on the Life of Mary, Introduction

II. Our blessed Lady is able and willing to help us. But in order to secure her powerful and generous assistance we must have a sincere devotion to her.
     This devotion must be practical. It ought to consist not only in words, but also in action.

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     A person truly devout to Mary will be enrolled in her Sodality; will celebrate her feasts very piously; will wear her scapular and medal; will venerate her images and visit her shrines; will love to read books on her life and virtues, and will endeavor throughout the year, but especially in May, to imitate her example. Certainly, a girl, a woman, cannot be said to have a true devotion to the Mother of God unless she honors and invokes her by frequent and fervent prayers.
     Of the various exercises in her honor, comes in the first place the Mass of our blessed Lady. Let us hear Mass in her honor on her feast-days, and on Saturdays. The Office of the Blessed Virgin, the Litany of Loretto, and the holy Rosary are singularly pleasing to her and enriched with indulgences.
     Other indulgenced prayers, acts of consecration, one of which might easily be said every day, the Salve Regina and other anthems, the Memorare and many short invocations, are to be found in this book.
     Let us not imagine, however, that, to secure the special protection of the Mother of God, our prayers must needs be very long. Much will depend upon our circumstances of life. But let us not forget the advice which Blessed John Berchmans gave to his companions at his death: "The least homage is sufficient, provided it be constant." Hence, what we have once resolved to do in honor of our blessed Lady must never be put aside or neglected, but must be faithfully persevered in, daily, until death.
     Father Bowden, of the Oratory, in his Miniature Life of Mary, suggests the following practices in honor of Mary. They may be drawn by lot, or otherwise chosen, at the beginning of a month.

Meditations on the Life of Mary, Introduction

Devotions for the month of May

Mary's Vocation
From stmichaelsociety.com
I. Let your prayer at the beginning of the month of May be for a true devotion to our blessed Lady.
     To speed your prayer on its way, make little acts of mortification, such as denying yourself some delicacy at table, keeping silence when your feelings are hurt, checking curiosity, preserving a cheerful countenance under all circumstances, being patient when your plans are thwarted, visiting the Blessed Sacrament when doing so means sacrificing a little pleasure, striving to perform the daily little duties well and carefully in imitation of Mary. By these and similar practices we honor Mary and advance our prayer by making it more pleasing to God.
     Why should we observe the month of May? For the love of Jesus, for the love of Mary, and for the good of our own souls.
     True devotion comes from God and leads to God.
     The fundamental rule in regard to the homage which we offer to the Blessed Virgin Mary and the saints is, that it must ultimately be referred to God and our eternal salvation. Our devotion to the Blessed Virgin would be of no avail if it did not tend toward our union with God, toward possessing Him eternally.
     True devotion extends itself to the saints without being separated from the eternal Source of all sanctity.
     "For other foundation no man can lay, but that which is laid; which is Christ Jesus" (I Cor 3). Let Him be the foundation of our devotion to His holy Mother.
     We are not able to honor our blessed Lady adequately, since, through her, Jesus has come to us. Oh, how destined her before all ages to be the Mother of the Saviour of the world. And having called her to fill this most glorious office, He would not have her be a mere channel of grace, but an instrument cooperating, both by her excellent qualities and by her own free will, in the great work of our Redemption.
     For thousands of years the world had been expecting the promised Messias. The fulness of time has now come. The eternal Father sends a heavenly messenger to Mary, to treat with her of the mystery of the Incarnation. She pronounces the word "Fiat!" "Be it done!" And the heavens open; the earth possess a Saviour; Mary has become the Mother of God.
     Years pass by. The time has arrived when the great sacrifice is to be consummated. We find Mary at the foot of the cross. With the dying breath of Jesus she receives the Church as an inheritance. Mary becomes our Mother.
     These are the two great titles which give Mary a claim on our veneration and affection. She is like a fountain from which the waters of grace have spread themselves abundantly over the whole human race. As we have once received through her Jesus, the Source of all blessing and grace, so we also obtain through her powerful intercession the various effects and applications of this grace in all the circumstances of life. Her maternal charity, which shines forth in the mystery of the Incarnation, also causes her to take a share in the consequences of this universal principle of benediction. Thus Mary is, by her intercession the Mother of all Christians, the Mother of all men. Her overflowing charity is an appropriate instrument for the operations of grace.
     Who is better able than Mary to plead in our behalf? She can confidently speak to the Heart of her divine Son, where her wishes, her sentiments, find an echo. She fears no refusal. The love of the Son makes Him lend a favorable ear to the request of His Mother.

From the Catholic Girl's Guide, which I've written about here, and here

Saturday, April 28, 2012

Devotions for the Month of May

The return of May, when nature, awakened from her winter sleep, is clad in all her vernal beauty, reminds us that all should be fair and bright within us also, that our hearts ought to be adorned with fair virtues, so as to be pleasing to Jesus and Mary. Devotion to the Blessed Virgin, frequent meditation on her life and contemplation of her example, earnest endeavor to imitate her virtues - these are all excellent means of sanctifying the soul and of advancing in the love of God. And since the May devotions are intended to attain this laudable end, since they are commended to us by holy Church and enriched with indulgences, it especially behooves us, who are the adopted children of Mary and her devoted clients, to perform these exercises with a willing heart and in the spirit of piety. The following suggestions will serve as your guide.

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1. If possible, receive the sacraments at the beginning of the month of May, in order that the meditations and devotions may bear more abundant fruit in your soul.
2. The chapters in the fore part and at the end of this book will furnish you with suitable matter for meditation and spiritual reading; to this you may add the Litany of Loretto and other prayers to the Blessed Virgin.
3. As your principal object propose to yourself to combat and thoroughly master some fault or bad habit, and to acquire the opposite virtue.
4. Every morning offer up your actions to Jesus and Mary, and endeavor earnestly to model your whole conduct by the example of the Blessed Virgin.
5. If you can manage to hear Mass daily, see that you do so; and if the May devotions are not held in public, perform them by yourself, either in church before the shrine of Our Lady, or at home before your own little altar of the Blessed Virgin.
6. Recite the Rosary frequently.
7. Finally, do your utmost to promote devotion to our blessed Lady among those with whom you come into contact.

Prayer of St. Alphonsus de Liguori to the Blessed Virgin Mary
Most holy Virgin Immaculate, my Mother Mary, to thee who art the Mother of my Lord, the Queen of the universe, the advocate, the hope, the refuge of sinners, I who am the most miserable of all sinners, have recourse this day. I worship thee, great Queen, and I thank thee for the many graces thou hast bestowed upon me even unto this day; in particular for having delivered me from the hell which I have so often deserved by my sins. I love thee, most dear Lady, and for the love I bear thee, I promise to serve thee willingly forever and to do what I can to make thee loved by others also. I place in thee all my hopes for salvation; accept me as thy servant and shelter me under thy mantle, thou who art the Mother of mercy. And since thou art so powerful with God, deliver me from all temptations, or at least get me the strength to overcome them until death. From thee I implore a true love for Jesus Christ. Through thee I hope to die a holy death. My dear Mother, by the love thou bearest to Almighty God. I pray thee to assist me always, but most of all at the last moment of my life. Forsake me not then, until thou shalt see me safe in Heaven, there to bless thee and sing of thy mercies through all eternity. Such is my hope. Amen.

Life Has a Way of Interrupting Thoughts

I truly do apologize for the lack of posting. I'm not dead, I promise. Life has been chaotic, and I've been pretty depressed, for lack of a better word, about life in general. This depression has consequently made it seem like my thoughts about pretty much anything are not wanted nor needed out there in the world. Nor have I really had the inclination to reflect upon the Scriptures or any other words of wisdom. I go to Adoration and I just sit and cry, and lately my prayer life is a joke - non existent.

But, I am going to try to pray a devotion during the month of May, where every day has some spiritual reading. In the days leading up to May 1, which I guess is the next three days (didn't plan this very well, did I?), I'll post the pertinent excerpts of the book "The Catholic Girl's Guide" where this devotion comes from.

Please pray for me, as I pray for all you reading. I leave you with a thought, written on a holy card and tucked into this, my mother's book.

Dear L-
God does all things best - with Him we also do our best in all. 
May He be with you always and bless you in all things for a Christ-like future.

Monday, April 9, 2012

M.I.A./Back in the Saddle

I've been missing in action. I apologize.

Life has been hectic and crazy, and just getting more crazy.

I will be posting more tomorrow, but I just have to get something off my chest.

I swear to all that is holy and good, if one more couple announces their pregnancy, I'm gonna go bat-shit crazy.