"You are a Christian - this has been imprinted upon your soul."
Well, okay, thanks Jesus. I already knew that and was asking about my vocation as a wife and mother, but thanks. This was my first thought in response. But thinking about it further, I realized that to be a baptized Christian fundamentally changes me, as a person, and I need to live that fundamental change every day - through my vocation as a wife and a mother.
After that (however long), I was just trying to be open and to listen - and believe me, my mind was out of control and it was pretty hard to concentrate. At one point, I stopped and said 3 successive "St. Michael" prayers because of unbidden images. I would pray, "Lord, I am a little child, teach me" and my thoughts would just start to spin out of control. But after awhile, I was just thinking how nice it was to be there with Jesus, and this thought came to me: