Ugh - it must be the weather. I'm tired, down in the dumps and irritable. I've been trying to say at least part of the Hours each day to get back on track with my prayer life. I don't 'feel' anything when I pray - no revelations, no stunning moments during prayer - not that I need a 'feeling' to keep me going. Maybe it's a good test of my stamina with prayer. Usually I start praying and I have all these good thoughts about the Office of Readings, or a Bible passage; then that goes away and I don't particularly feel like praying anymore. So maybe starting off with no attachments to feelings will help me keep going with the Hours.
Plus, I keep 'running' into women who are pregnant - in real life and online. I'm irritated with that. My husband and I would like to have more kids, but right now, God is saying "no." I know it's not fair to be irritable with pregnant women who for some reason seem to come out of the woodwork whenever I'm depressed about never having another child (possibly), but it's one of those things. I remember after my first miscarriage (2005), literally, the next two months were nothing but a steady stream of women telling me they were pregnant. I am happy for them, don't get me wrong. But especially after a miscarriage, you don't particularly want to have a pregnant women - with all her joy and happiness and glowiness (yes, I invented that word) - around you.
Then, I'm also getting tired of arguments online about religion/Catholicism, and politics too. Yes, I know that's part of what I do here, ranting and raving about that stuff. Lately, though, I've lost my taste for it. Especially politics. I feel like our country is going down the shitter and after being outraged about the way things are going, for so long, I'm a little tapped out.
Sigh. Where was I? Oh right, Drink Thursdays.
Anyway, I need a week off - I'm not feeling particularly inspired about the series right now and I need to really get excited about someone to drink with. I don't know if I'll just take this week off, or a couple of weeks.
Anything inspiring you lately? What's something good happening in your life, to cheer me up? (LOL) Please share.
OK--here goes! The Queen of the House has started a small publishing enterprize, and the first book is about miracles--ones in everyday life that the author has first hand knowlege of, from healing to conversions.
ReplyDeleteThe gally proofs are done, and there are even orders from local book stores.
And it all just fell together, yet is the end of a process of several years for the skills, means, opportunity and will to be present. it is itself a clear sign of the Holy Spirit in action.
Plus, I hope you have a nice week off, and have a drink today in honor of ST.Ephrem the Syrian, deacon and doctor. Also, you just got a batch of three aspirations on your behalf!
Some days you just have to tell the world "Piss off" and take a holiday. Sounds like you're there.
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I've been a bit meh myself the past couple of days. And boy howdy do I know what you mean about pregnant women all over the place. I try really really hard to actually BE happy but... it's hard.
ReplyDeleteGood things, good things. Well, in theory UPS is bringing me K-cups so I can have coffee tomorrow morning without any fuss. Hopefully they come through.
Please delete my email address ASAP above, ta`
ReplyDeleteOh good news.
ReplyDeleteOur Trip Jar is almost full and that means a ROAD TRIP is in the works.
We were planning a trip to Ottawa for Canada Day, but apparently the Newlywed Waleses had the same idea, and there isn't a vacant room in all of G-town.
So we ahve no idea where to go now. We were thinking of driving through Ottawa but staying a a quaint little town called VARS.
Puff, I will but you'll have to re-post your comment :-)
ReplyDeleteFair enough, though can't promise I can remember it verbatum here goes.
ReplyDeleteI think it went like this.
"Miscarriages suck the bag. I've had four. One before my elder daughter and 3 between her and her sister. Then nothing, not even a whisper of a pregnancy. And just as I'd given up any thought of another baby, Frodo comes along.
And it always seemed that everyone was pregnant, just as I had lost one. And I realize that you probably don't give a rat's patootie about my experiences.
So I will say, enjoy your break, regroup, recharge."
I think that was it.
I will add now, Have a beer.
And I just want to say 'thanks' to you all for sharing your well-wishes and good things happening. God bless you!
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