Ugh - it must be the weather. I'm tired, down in the dumps and irritable. I've been trying to say at least part of the Hours each day to get back on track with my prayer life. I don't 'feel' anything when I pray - no revelations, no stunning moments during prayer - not that I need a 'feeling' to keep me going. Maybe it's a good test of my stamina with prayer. Usually I start praying and I have all these good thoughts about the Office of Readings, or a Bible passage; then that goes away and I don't particularly feel like praying anymore. So maybe starting off with no attachments to feelings will help me keep going with the Hours.
Plus, I keep 'running' into women who are pregnant - in real life and online. I'm irritated with that. My husband and I would like to have more kids, but right now, God is saying "no." I know it's not fair to be irritable with pregnant women who for some reason seem to come out of the woodwork whenever I'm depressed about never having another child (possibly), but it's one of those things. I remember after my first miscarriage (2005), literally, the next two months were nothing but a steady stream of women telling me they were pregnant. I am happy for them, don't get me wrong. But especially after a miscarriage, you don't particularly want to have a pregnant women - with all her joy and happiness and glowiness (yes, I invented that word) - around you.
Then, I'm also getting tired of arguments online about religion/Catholicism, and politics too. Yes, I know that's part of what I do here, ranting and raving about that stuff. Lately, though, I've lost my taste for it. Especially politics. I feel like our country is going down the shitter and after being outraged about the way things are going, for so long, I'm a little tapped out.
Sigh. Where was I? Oh right, Drink Thursdays.
Anyway, I need a week off - I'm not feeling particularly inspired about the series right now and I need to really get excited about someone to drink with. I don't know if I'll just take this week off, or a couple of weeks.
Anything inspiring you lately? What's something good happening in your life, to cheer me up? (LOL) Please share.