I need a personal assistant/nanny right now. There is so much going on, so much I'm trying to do. My house is a wreck - I've only been home to sleep basically, since last Friday. Dirty dishes, laundry needing done, garbage taken out, meals to be cooked. Plus, my husband is working, and the kids are with me, while I'm trying to help get stuff done. Every night, I've been going home exhausted and yet my mind is racing. Funny how when people ask if they can do anything, I don't think they really want to clean your house for you, or do your laundry, or clean out your kitty litter box.
We are trying to get obituary written, funeral program put together, vigil and Mass readings, who is doing what, food, etc. It's just a wee bit on the tiring side.
Plus, I'm just trying to keep my mind busy, because otherwise, I start to think of my mom. How she smelled, the way she hugged me, how much she loved my kids, her singing, her praying, her comforting me last summer, her cheerfulness, her smile....
All the things that I never said; all the things she never got around to teaching me; all the hugs I never got to give her, the kisses.